hey guys
its the time of the year where i post about people who meant much to me in 2010 :)


13) Athirah

thanks for all the advice you've given me for the past year. about everything. from girls etc. fauzi has such a good girlfriend. hahaha

12) Peiqi

thanks for showing me how to make the starbucks drinks for the booth. really enjoyed my time although i was a bit slow. and you have a nice house.. apart from the dog though. TICKLE MING TJUN MORE! HAHA

11) Nazri

Bro since 2005 mendaki class. haha met at east coast. thanks for the advice and the naughty stories you've told me on that day. keke and nice bike btw. enjoyed the ride. hope to see you again some time

10) Norman

Faster come back from London! haha you golden sun freak. and angry birds freak. basically every iphone game freak. haha. thanks for the guidance at the starbucks booth. really appreciate it.

9) Syafiq

Izza and Wani stalker. grr hahaha joker of the jokers. thanks for visiting my starbucks booth even though you're schooling at SP. really appreciate it even though it was my treat. haha but then you pay me back so even lah.. Now you becoming the third member of GYM-ERS with me and zi alr. haha hope your muscle will grow. Thank you izza luver

8) Ihsan

Riffer. Tremonti freak. Alter Bridge and Creed freak. sounds like me right? ahaha had a fun time talking to you about rock music, guitars and stuff. hope to jam soon.

7) Aisyah

my mistress. not. hahah I've known you for quite awhile now. 2010 was like the year when we started talking and all. ahah thanks for the gossips. it made my nights exciting. im always looking forward to you being online. apart when im playing games lah. really sorry if u feel i never layan you okay? really busy sometimes with guitar and all. haha. i hope to see you soon... in real life. hahahah

6) Qin Fang

the cutiepie of my class for 2 terms already. haha really appreciate your kindness and all. and planning for events hahaha. stay cute alright?

5) Shahren

ex drummer of mine. we always copy one piece moves and fight against each other. hahahah it was fucking fun. and please dont expect me to treat you every time we go out. hahahaha see ya

4) Ming Tjun

Shrek. i wanna say thanks for all the car rides. especially you coming to woodlands regardless of you living far just to come find me or bring me back home. i'll appreciate that. thanks for going the extra mile

3) Fauzi

the friend i mostly hung out with apart from school friends. haha and my gym partner. bila muscle mau besar mcm aku huh? hahaha really glad you decided to gym cos before you did, i had no motivation at all. like going one time per week. bila mau game sia tu? then after you decide, we gym for 3 times per week and my god results were obvious. haha thank you

2) Farah

2010 you were a pretty big deal to me. i had no idea on how to move on or get you out of my head. Just like you are having a hard time forgetting hakim. i have a hard time forgetting you. i know i shouldn't say this. or type this now. cos its too late perhaps. i wished that i wouldn't have this commitment issues 2 years ago and just disappear like that. i know yeah my mistake. call me busted or jerk. you guys can say what you want. but i just want you to know that i really wasn't toying around with your feelings or what. in fact i can say during that time i was seriously in love with you. well...i just hope to learn something from this and don't do it again. Thanks for everything. hope 2011 will be the third time lucky to get these feelings off of my chest.

1) Haikal

What would i do without you? Best friend and classmate since 1.1.. we were really the A2 guys. thanks for sacrificing time for me to teach me some of the modules. really appreciate that. and all the lame jokes by me that you've gotta face. hahaha dont worry the lame jokes never stops! haha i hope our 3rd year will be great. after that we can graduate together. ikuzo aerospace!!

Almost 2 years ago, a friend turned to me for comfort. Me being the nice guy i am helped her cheer up, making lame jokes and such.

You wouldn't know this but on 21/08/2008, i called you for the first time and i thought i was listening to an angel. i fell in love with you that instant and i looked at you as a different person now. more than a friend.

You can ask how did i remember the date. apparently that moment i was browsing through the calendar on my phone. oh yea we had the same slider nokia phone last time. haha
tomorrow is 21/08/2010. not taking account to the leap year or what, its two years ago.

now I've decided to look at you just as a friend. It's gonna be hard but can manage..
Dont worry about love. One day you will find someone who will sweep off your feet and really take care of you. One who makes you the priority instead of an option. One who treats you like the princess you claim to be so don't lose faith about the whole concept of love. and most importantly one who makes you happy.

Oh yeah one difference is that this time, i'm not running away. I'm still your friend. Heh


after i finished typing this..


its 12 am. 21/08/2010

10 reasons why you should not be an air stewardess.

1) i'll be damn sad because i dont get to see you

2) following (1), of course later i will start missing you

3) you love your sleep. if flight is at night how?

4) Dont be the next me. i know i left you 2 years ago but that doesnt mean you need to leave right?

5) I dont know what bad stuff to do to forget you and move on if you really become an air stewardess.

6) you said you love my presence. why leave?

7) if the crew on the plane is as 'evil' as verna how? confirm later you'll get bullied

8) the uniform for air stewardess is as hot as hell. if people aka 'banglas' keep staring at you how?

9) you need to serve alcohol. haram leh. LOL

10) i love you too much to let go

roughly 2 years ago
i fell in love with a friend unknowingly
i thought i had found the perfect girl.
she had the perfect smile
infectious laugh
whiny at times, well most times but i could live with it.
there were times when i felt my heart was in sync with hers as i could sense whatever things that she could feel in her heart.
painful feelings, happy feelings.

but i blew it.
the thought of commitment went over my head.
the thought of a possibility of losing her by committing isnt something i wanted.
so i disappeared
i know these are excuses
but looking back at these 2 years i know i have regretted a lot.

right now
she still has the most perfect smile, wider than anyone ive known.
her laugh is still as infectious as ever
and shes still whiny
but now there is a painful feeling in heart
i want to take out the painful feeling in her heart
but i know i cant




cos im not hers

long time never blog eh
school has been great but boring
modules are really killing me
im only interested in maths modules
but who cares
stupid diploma
stupid course
not my dream
but bo bian.


been smoking a lot since china
and now my lungs is killing me
cant breathe properly
ill die before i turn 30
fuck what if still virgin?
lol


i had a really strange thought yesterday while i was lying on my bed
it was about my arwah nenek
i remember last time, i should be ard 7 years old, i had asthma. she took care for me. that time i was really struggling to breathe la. then she took out my lego-made-robot that i made for weeks and put beside my bed. thinking of that it made my eyes tear a bit.
when i was growing up, i pushed my arwah nenek down accidentally and now that thought hurts me more than ever.
and when she died i thought i was the one who was crying the least. but the tears that was holding me back from crying full blast is the inspiration and emotion that made me write this post.

i miss you nenek


take care

Muhd Sufi Hakim
6th week journal

During Tomb Sweeping Day (a holiday here in china), Nizam, Haikal and I, went to go and see pandas. The place is quiet far away. It was raining and i decided to buy an umbrella just for a mere 10 RMB which Shawn still says i got conned. Hahah so yeah the pandas were cute. Took a lot of pictures and videos. After we got back to the campus, all of our time was concentrated on studying APPG. I don’t want to go back Singapore and still need to take APPG as that would be a waste of time. But the day wasn’t totally a studying one as at night we still had the time to play one game of dota.

The next day was APPG theory test 2. I had my doubts over topic 6 and 7 but topic 1 to 5 seemed okay so i am sure i can pass the test. Let’s just hope the lecturers are lenient enough. After the test, we had a field trip to a singtel company here in Chengdu. The CEO is a Singaporean! Apparently he had been out of Singapore for 7 years already. Woa i can tahan for 6 weeks but 7 years?! No way. We got to tour around the company for an hour and after that went back to campus.

Thursday was fast approaching. It was our IS presentation. I worked on it all day during Wednesday even skipping dinner to finish our presentation while polishing it up with videos. I did three out of the four videos presented. I will upload the videos on facebook after I’m back in Singapore.

The day of the presentation. My group was the fourth to present. There were a lot of groups though. So after we presented, confirm got extra time to play games on laptop. Haha. I thought my group presentation was entertaining and funny although it lacked content but it was ok. I was satisfied. I was amazed with Daniel’s group presentation as their content was strong and their videos were funny especially the part where they were blowing out gas due to the cold weather.

The next day which was Friday proved to be a memorable but sad day for us who played soccer with the Uyghur. It was the last match with them. I scored another hat trick to make it 22 goals for 6 weeks. I forgot how many matches we played. But overall not bad for someone fat. Hahahaha so after the match we took pictures and hugged the uyghurs as they have given us this friendship. If they weren’t there for us, i believe my six weeks here will be dull. Thanks Uyghur

Hudabade, Aziz, Xaparang, Hoji, Mohammed Aziz, Khair, Anwar and the rest of the Uyghur. Thank you all.

Muhd Sufi Hakim
5th week

Back from Jiu Zhai Gou, we were exhausted and hungry. After putting our bags down in the dormitory, we headed to the restaurant and order our favourite food! Never had food tasted so good especially if you didn’t eat something nice for 3 days.

It was APPG for 2 whole days.. so sian. Don’t even talk about the IS lecture. Even more boring

The weekend my group went to the electronics place, their so called ‘Sim Lim’ with Mr teo and his wife. It was an hour journey from the new UESTC campus to the old campus. Lucky i brought with me my new earpiece to blast music out loud. After arriving we need to walk some more to hire a taxi. After arriving at the first tower, we predicted that there are going be a lot of pirated stuff selling here. Well its china right. Fuad, Nizam and me only bought games which didn’t work or there were a few errors in installing the games.

We exited the first tower within an hour because time is running out. While we were walking to the second tower, there was a man trying to sell CDs to Mr Teo. Once Mr Teo saw what it was, he laughed and moved on. Me, curious as ever, went to see what he was selling. Turns out it was porn! haha then the group laughed and move on.

The only memorable incident in the second tower was this hot woman trying to con me. Here’s how the story goes.

As usual, my eyes are wandering around, looking at women if i had the chance. Then suddenly my eyes spotted one sweet, cute lady tending to her store. I pretended to be a customer and saw that she was selling a lot of CDs. I took a look but i didn’t touch any of her CDs. After that i walked off and sat down on a sofa with Nizam and Haikal while playing Wii tennis. Out of a sudden the woman earlier approached me and spoke to me in Chinese. I was confused but Bei Jia translated the words for me and told me that i stole her CDs and I needed to pay her the money. I was like ‘what the heck? You lucky you pretty. If not...’ then Mrs Teo came to my rescue and told her off. Come on I’m an innocent angel with a bright halo on top of me.

After that we went back straight to the old campus and then back to the new campus. Had dinner with the group and back to our dorms.

Muhd Sufi Hakim
4th week journal

Another 2 weeks till home sweet home. I didn’t think i could survive 4 weeks in another country without my parents but I guess determination and money prove me wrong. Hahahah. If 6 weeks no problem at here, national service will be a breeze. I actually aimed to shed some kilos over these few weeks but I feel that I kind of gain more weight because I’m eating too much here! To tell you the truth, the food here is delicious especially the ones cooked at this halal restaurant in the campus. The dishes I always order are ‘Neuro Ban Mian’ and ‘Neuro Chow Fan’. All this food talk is making me hungry already. Hahah

On Monday the 22nd of March, I turned 18. Thanks for all the wishes. At facebook alone there were over 100s of them. Thank you all.

The first major thing that happened in week 4 was our APPG Lab Test. Although I felt I was prepared for it, I blanked out in the room. I saw a few people asking for help from other fellow students secretly but I didn’t want to as i want my conscious to be clear. Besides if I fail means I can learn from it. You can’t from cheating. As soon as I received my paper, i started doing but heck my mind was so blank I begin to cock up. I forgot my ‘messagebox’ got inverted commas and my ‘.ToString’. Now I’m just hoping I can study harder for Theory Test 2 so it can pull up my grade for APPG.

Sunday came. It was our trip to Jiu Zhai Gou. I must say this one of the most beautiful places on Earth and this place will surely be a good mention in one of those ‘100 places to go before I die’ articles.

My dormitory mates didn’t sleep the whole night for fear we would not wake up in time for our flight. The flight was at 7am. The bus from our campus leaves at 5. So yeah played DOTA all the way. It was tiring to wait till 5am. In the bus we managed to catch a nap as the airport was just a 45 minute ride away. Once we reached the airport, we got our flight tickets. My seat was 1D. I got a happy feeling at that time about my seat but I wasn’t quite sure what it was. So Mr Teo settled some things blah blah blah. Once on the aeroplane, i finally knew what that feeling is. The feeling of FIRST CLASS SEAT. Hahah. The flight will be about 1 hour from here to Jiu Zhai Gou. Caught some sleep but a sudden change of temperature and altitude woke me up. My ears were hurting and I was shivering. Upon arrival, the air stewardess announced, “We have arrived at Jiu Zhai Gou, 2500 metres above sea level and the temperature is -2 degrees Celsius”.

I thought i was a hero wearing 3 layer of clothes only haha. I was wrong. I took out another sweater. Put in on and it was still bloody cold. Outside the airport I could see fragments of ice on windows but there weren’t any snow.. YET. I asked Mr Tan how far our hotel was from the airport. He said we were going to take some detours along the way before going to the hotel. It was 2 hours to this waterfall place. On the way to there, I seriously had some bladder problem. 30 minutes to the journey, I already had the urge to pee but it wasn’t until 20 minutes later till the next toilet break. So I quickly dashed to the toilet and pee till I was satisfied. I got back to the bus and i had the urge to pee again! Wahlaowei. Fast forward to the waterfall place. This is the first place i experienced snow in china. There were only small currents flowing down in the lower part of this place. We needed to climb to the top to get to see a spectacular waterfall. And what a sight to behold! The waterfall was beautiful. This is just the beginning. Tomorrow would be a beautiful day and changed my life forever.

In the hotel, I was paired up with Amin to share a room to spend 2 nights. I was too lethargic to unpack so i just threw myself on the bed and fell asleep. Can’t blame me I’ve had a lack of sleep. Haha the next morning my feet felt so cold. I open the windows and I couldn’t believe my eyes. Snow covered the place, mountains and trees in white. No wonder so cold. I wore 5 layers to Jiu Zhai Gou’s nature park which is the main event for the 4th week.

Upon reaching the nature park we were required to take a bus to Virgin Forest, which was located in the Rize Valley, and then go back down to where we came. Jiu Zhai Gou is composed of three valleys arranged in a Y shape.The bus was packed and now I know how sardines felt when they are in a tin. Hahah. Reached halfway and the bus asked us to alight as the season has just past winter, it was too dangerous to go any further. Right now my group were at Panda Lake. Kept trying to find panda waterfalls but failed. Panda Lake was cool but it wasn’t any significant. Took some pictures here and there. Went to pearl shoals and found pearl waterfall. To me this is the most amazing sight to ever see other than hot women. The Pearl Shoal waterfall somehow creates this mist that creates this amazing effect which I can’t really describe here. You have to be there to see it for yourself. Now I know why this waterfall is world famous. Too bad I didn’t have a camera.

Our next destination was the tourist centre where we could take a bus to Long Lake which is located in the Zechawa valley. The bus ride was longer because it climbs to a higher altitude. Once reached, I couldn’t believe my eyes. The lake was literally frozen solid! Me acting as a child went lower to see a clearer view of the frozen lake. What an awesome sight. I turned to my right and there were people crossing over the authorised line, taking pictures on the big pile of rocks. Wanting some cheap thrills, my group mates climbed over the authorised line getting nearer to the frozen lake. I swear while walking i almost lost my footing because what we were walking on was big rocks. Once we were literally near the frozen lake, we threw rocks to try to break up the frozen lake. I threw mine and the rock literally bounced off the ice top. Nizam threw a big rock. It did break the ice but the water turned to ice back just moments after it broke! I looked back and we were very far off from the authorised line. An achievement indeed. Haha after a while, there was a security guard who ordered us to go back up. Because we were scared that he might shoot us, we went back up reluctantly. Overall, the long lake was the best place in jiu zhai gou. After we got back up, we met up with Qi Long’s gang and headed straight to the entrance place without exploring Shuzheng Valley. That was our biggest regret. Not having time to explore the whole place entirely.

Went back to the hotel to have a quick shower and dinner. After that the OIP group went to see a Tibet Concert which to me was quite ok due to the fact there was a lot of beautiful girls dancing.
The next day we had to wake up early for our flight back to Chengdu. The best damn thing during the journey was that it was covered in snow. After reaching the airport we had time to take pictures with snow but i didnt get to do my snow angel.....
So that’s it for week 4. Stay tuned for week 5.

Muhd Sufi Hakim
3rd week journal

What’s up! 3rd week was not really exciting as we only went to the city on Saturday and playing soccer every other weekday. Nevertheless, I must still write this journal if not I won’t get marks for IS. Haha

The big issue about week three was our APPG theory test. I hoped to score at least 70 something for this test because I had studied hard and paid attention to Mr Ma’s lecture class. (Well almost...). And I really thought the test was quite easy. The next day the results were out. I got 62. It was quite disappointing. But at least didn’t fail or else need to take retest which is just a waste of time in my opinion.

The weather in Chengdu has gotten better now. The sun is out. There is no breeze but warmth that is reaching to our dormitory and our hearts. Hahaha every day after lessons, my group will go and play soccer.

Amin - commands players to move. Great at both feet.

Nizam - long legs but always fail to tackle the ball from opponent. Exaggerates his skills that can make him lose possession of the ball. Can run fast though

Haikal - great at tackling people 1 on 1. His reaction is too slow after tackling because he wants to adjust his spectacles

Me - Great finisher. Striker! Woohoo hahah. Though I’m a bit slow at times.

Zahrul - SAFFC captain. Can pass the ball wall. Exaggerates his skills. I know this out of point but he always steals my dorm’s food

Juventus - good at crossing

Andy - tyco kia. Dribbles in a funny way

Qi Long - times the ball well to tackle opponent

Fuad – Speed demon. haha

Fariz - our very own goalkeeper. Hahah his face always got hit by the ball.

Thats our OIP soccer team! Hahah

Other than those activities, there were 2 cultural activities lined up for that week. The first was this negotiation thing that we had to do in the evening. It was mediocre though mainly I couldn’t speak in Chinese to debate with the other party. I wanted to help my team so bad. I guess this is why learning Chinese is important.

But my group mates were those with never say die attitude. Jia Hao and one other guy whom I forgot the name. We debated until we got what we want and in the end we received the 3rd prize. Not bad huh?

The second cultural activity was on the weekend after the city tour. Only Nizam and I went. Haikal and Amin were too lazy to meet the new Chinese students. Haha i admit I only came because I wanted to fly kites with the beautiful girls. We both headed to the place and found out that we need to draw our own design on our kite. This one cute girl volunteered to help us and I ended up drawing her face on our kite. Hahaha. After playing with the paint, we set off to fly our kite. It was a hell lot of fun.

Muhd Sufi Hakim
2nd week journal

The 2nd week started after countless of hours playing DOTA(Defence of the Ancients) after the City Tour. Yes we were at fault for being a teeny bit late for classes but the game is too addictive. On Monday we had our first programmable programs done on Microsoft visual studio. Though i did not listen to Mr Ma for some parts i still managed to finish my Lab 1 and 2 with ease. After that, as everyone knows me, i became complacent and thus i did not pay attention to his lectures but instead playing DOTA in class. In front of Mr Teo’s and Mr Tan’s eyes some more! Hahaha. After one of the lectures Mr Teo reprimanded us because we cannot do one of the MessageBox questions as we were not paying attention. My group, except Haikal, apologised and tried not to play games in class anymore.

Sidetrack for a bit. I wished i had bring more coffee for this trip. I’m running out of it. And China’s Nescafe sucks!

The 2nd week was also special as we started playing soccer with the UESTC students. The first match ended 8-8 which the UESTC students won by penalties. I scored 5 in that game. Man of the match la!! The next match with other students ended in 12-7 which we lost but i still scored 3 goals which means a hat trick. I must admit the Chinese people over here has better stamina and has bigger bodies than the average Singaporean which is why i came to conclude that if Singaporeans never train in harsh weathers like the cold weather in Chengdu, Singapore football will still have a gloomy future.

On Saturday, we went to Mount Qingcheng. The journey was a long one. Actually before mount qingcheng there was a place we went but i forgot the name. The only interesting thing in that place was the shaking bridge. Hahaha i shook the bridge until the people there all kanchiong. Hahahaha so ya back to mount qingcheng. My friend, juventus, said it was about 800 metres tall and a lot of temples are located in the mountain. I climb a few flight of stairs already tired but determination in me drove me on until the 2nd temple because we were limited to climb until the 2nd temple. Mr Tan cheated. He and his wife only climb till the first temple. Mr Teo and Mr Ma were energetic throughout even though they have aged. Hahah overall it was a fun week.

Muhd Sufi Hakim
1st week journal

In the aeroplane, i could already expect the kind of temperature that is going on in China. It would be a few weeks more till it enters spring which means more suitable weather for my body and brain to study in. The moment i got out of the aeroplane, it was so cold that i felt like i was in the freezer. Haha. I even wore 3 layers of clothing on me!

Then the group rode on the bus to UESTC. The ride took an hour long and i was already exhausted. Reached the dorm and it was better than i expected. Well a bit better only. I expected it to be worse. Haha but it was cosy and comfortable. Just needed a sweep and some wiping and the dorm will be all clean. We had dinner in one of the canteens. Unfortunately, i didn’t eat because i didn’t feel that the food they were giving us were halal food. Then my group headed to the school’s supermarket to grab some things to eat and some hangars and a rope. The first day my body hasn’t adapted to the weather yet and i was really shivering the whole time.

The next day, woke up to find my body is shaking due to the cold weather. Hahaha. Proceeded to the shower room for the first time and tested out the water. And no the water is not cold but hot as hell. I can almost feel my scalp scalded after the first few drops of hot water dropped on my head. I swear to never use that shower again. Blah2 proceeded to one of the rooms in their lecture building and i was really amazed at how big the school is. The first 2 hours is about introduction of theirs and it was boring. Really i think i fell asleep. Their introduction was over and headed to the canteen. I found out there was a halal canteen just beside the real canteen and i was delighted because i get to taste Chinese delicacy. The food tastes horrible and cold. To prevent hunger from coming, i smoked a lot.

The next lesson was APPG. I was scared at the first time because i didn’t do to well for COMPRO but after the lesson, i felt the module was ok but very fast paced. I guess 6 weeks here the lecturers must chiong with their lectures. My group went back to the dorm but Nizam went somewhere to grab food. My group, all hungry, slacked in the dorm. After 10 mins, Nizam came back with egg prata and i assure you the prata is one of the tastiest pratas without eating curry! My group then decided to go to the place that sells the prata. It turns out the restaurant beside the prata shop was a halal food shop. That place became our main hangout for food. Hahaha

Fast forward to the weekend, where the OIP group went to one of the cities in Chengdu. The place i thought was bigger than Singapore’s orchard road. There were even hotter babes here than in Singapore. North, south, east, west. There were full of babes. Unfortunately, i didn’t shop much because i only brought a few notes with me. But nevertheless, i bought 2 belts. One for my dad and one for myself. Other than that, my group did nothing except for slacking around in the city and babe watching.

Continued......

so im going china on wed. gonna miss a lot of people.

- my parents. thanks for everything. forking out money when my trip to china are not subsidised at all. (cos the people up there think my parents are from high class paying jobs so needed to pay the full $1800 -.-)

- Varicella (Shahren,Jowin,Caleb). im sorry if im such a let down in a few lead parts. but i promise u guys ill work hard

- Poly mates (farhan and the AE peeps, 1A02 first sem, 2nd sem). thank you for one of the best year in my life. was a really great first year with you guys

- Honourable mentions

1) Haikal. Best bud of the year. sorry if i copied a lot of your work. but hey i still contributed to the homeworks too. thanks. i can depend a lot on this guy. thanks for everything

2) Alyssyah. You taught me how to scold girls in another different level that is considered to me as fun. haha im sorry we meet. i guess if we didnt meet then things would have turn out differently i guess. thanks for everything

3) Shahren. Best going out buddy to pool and jamming of the year. sorry if im a bitch at times but i guess thats me right. hahaha. thanks for everything. i promise ill improve on my guitar skills

4) Fariz. Even though you can be late and have a fucked up attitude at some times, i still consider u as one of the best buds in poly. the thing i like about u is u like to share without hesitation. and yah ure the best gym bud id ever had. ahahah hopefully in china we'll enjoy ourselves. thanks alot

5) Farhan. hahah mat rep! thanks for all the joey and chandler moments. smoking moments. having fun in CATS moments. if this post was to be about first sem, confirm ure the first person on the list! haha thanks for everything

6) Nadirah. hahaha first girl i looked for like 10 times in a row when i had a gig back last year. haha. hope ull overcome ur problem soon and say ure beautiful alright! hahaha and stop crying for fuck sake. and dont smoke.

7) Yip Yong. DEL buddy. hahah sorry for all the jokes about u. hopefully next year we're still in the same class or what. then we can take 52 to bishan everyday after school. hahahah. thanks

8) Sufei. my step sister. hahahah im gonna miss u a lot. confirm u can score for ur exams lah. promise me we'll meet up after im back from china? we can call it our belated birthday lunch. hahahah

9) Syafiq. thanks for letting me go to that american school. i still have hard on thinking bout that school. hehe. and thanks for refereeing in my match last sat.

10) Haiqal Anuar. my best friend in pri school and still today. best milfhunter also. thanks for everything


theres a lot of people in the list right now. but this is the top 10. heh
i hope ill return back safely from china. toodles for now

hey peeps. happy cny and valentines
im at the airport with an idiot that i cant seem to lose him off. hahahaha
hahaha anyway all the best in your upcoming exams

and im not even sad i dont have a date for valentines!

today really pushed myself to the limit in sch gym. haha

and i got to know something
apparently this girl told my friend that 'the person i liked' didnt like me and then told everyone about it

to 'the person i liked'

why does such news always i have to end up the last to know? its about me what? why last?
and.. if u really dont like me, ill appreciate it if u just tell me directly to my face rather than other people.
the first incident was similar to this. keeping quiet aint gonna help.
why are girls such complicating creatures?

she took my heart
she took my soul
she took my fragile hand
to hold
she took advantage all the time
ill take her back
cos her love makes me blind

WAH FINALLY BLOGGED! AFTER 2 MONTHS. someone forced me to blog. heh
final exams are nearing. i hope im prepared for it
just now was FAT final test. Fundamentals of Aerospace Technology. super difficult. -.-
heh




at least say something
rather than keeping it to yourself
if not ill end up feeling more pain inside
and its ok if you dont love me
i dont care
i just wanted a response
please say something
let us be friends again
we'll chat until the wee hours of the morning
eating nutella


i love to hide my feelings
and if i cant control them
ill blog it at here
so im thanking you blog.
thanks for being there for me