Almost 2 years ago, a friend turned to me for comfort. Me being the nice guy i am helped her cheer up, making lame jokes and such.

You wouldn't know this but on 21/08/2008, i called you for the first time and i thought i was listening to an angel. i fell in love with you that instant and i looked at you as a different person now. more than a friend.

You can ask how did i remember the date. apparently that moment i was browsing through the calendar on my phone. oh yea we had the same slider nokia phone last time. haha
tomorrow is 21/08/2010. not taking account to the leap year or what, its two years ago.

now I've decided to look at you just as a friend. It's gonna be hard but can manage..
Dont worry about love. One day you will find someone who will sweep off your feet and really take care of you. One who makes you the priority instead of an option. One who treats you like the princess you claim to be so don't lose faith about the whole concept of love. and most importantly one who makes you happy.

Oh yeah one difference is that this time, i'm not running away. I'm still your friend. Heh


after i finished typing this..


its 12 am. 21/08/2010

10 reasons why you should not be an air stewardess.

1) i'll be damn sad because i dont get to see you

2) following (1), of course later i will start missing you

3) you love your sleep. if flight is at night how?

4) Dont be the next me. i know i left you 2 years ago but that doesnt mean you need to leave right?

5) I dont know what bad stuff to do to forget you and move on if you really become an air stewardess.

6) you said you love my presence. why leave?

7) if the crew on the plane is as 'evil' as verna how? confirm later you'll get bullied

8) the uniform for air stewardess is as hot as hell. if people aka 'banglas' keep staring at you how?

9) you need to serve alcohol. haram leh. LOL

10) i love you too much to let go

roughly 2 years ago
i fell in love with a friend unknowingly
i thought i had found the perfect girl.
she had the perfect smile
infectious laugh
whiny at times, well most times but i could live with it.
there were times when i felt my heart was in sync with hers as i could sense whatever things that she could feel in her heart.
painful feelings, happy feelings.

but i blew it.
the thought of commitment went over my head.
the thought of a possibility of losing her by committing isnt something i wanted.
so i disappeared
i know these are excuses
but looking back at these 2 years i know i have regretted a lot.

right now
she still has the most perfect smile, wider than anyone ive known.
her laugh is still as infectious as ever
and shes still whiny
but now there is a painful feeling in heart
i want to take out the painful feeling in her heart
but i know i cant




cos im not hers