long time never blog eh
school has been great but boring
modules are really killing me
im only interested in maths modules
but who cares
stupid diploma
stupid course
not my dream
but bo bian.


been smoking a lot since china
and now my lungs is killing me
cant breathe properly
ill die before i turn 30
fuck what if still virgin?
lol


i had a really strange thought yesterday while i was lying on my bed
it was about my arwah nenek
i remember last time, i should be ard 7 years old, i had asthma. she took care for me. that time i was really struggling to breathe la. then she took out my lego-made-robot that i made for weeks and put beside my bed. thinking of that it made my eyes tear a bit.
when i was growing up, i pushed my arwah nenek down accidentally and now that thought hurts me more than ever.
and when she died i thought i was the one who was crying the least. but the tears that was holding me back from crying full blast is the inspiration and emotion that made me write this post.

i miss you nenek


take care