roughly 2 years ago
i fell in love with a friend unknowingly
i thought i had found the perfect girl.
she had the perfect smile
infectious laugh
whiny at times, well most times but i could live with it.
there were times when i felt my heart was in sync with hers as i could sense whatever things that she could feel in her heart.
painful feelings, happy feelings.

but i blew it.
the thought of commitment went over my head.
the thought of a possibility of losing her by committing isnt something i wanted.
so i disappeared
i know these are excuses
but looking back at these 2 years i know i have regretted a lot.

right now
she still has the most perfect smile, wider than anyone ive known.
her laugh is still as infectious as ever
and shes still whiny
but now there is a painful feeling in heart
i want to take out the painful feeling in her heart
but i know i cant




cos im not hers