even though people know me as very sociable and outgoing, people doesnt know whats inside thats suffering. i know i suck at this.. but seeing her once per week makes my lesson worthwhile. but to know that she treat you differently than other strangers may tell you a thing.

and when i went to dinner with ming tjun and yasin, i couldnt help but wonder. lol lucky theres 2 brothers, ciggies and laughing gas to make me feel better. if not i think ill lose my mind