i still fucking love her after all this while

Jason Mraz - Im Yours Aol Sessions via Noolmusic.com

now im posting bout today. heh. had listening compre exam. susah ah. the options all about the same.heh

oh jabir is chatting with me now.
he said that khairul dah ade. shaid dah ade. irfan dah ade. fauzi nak dekat ade. (and still counting) haha.
hmm. it'll probably take months for me to fall in love again. so im gonna savour every moment i have with the guys and girls i know(those who are sec 4 in regent)

they are Jabir,Fauzi,Ziyad,Alfian,Kamil,Irfan,Shaid,Anwar,Khairul,Najwan,Zul,Hilmi,Fuad,Lutfil,Matthew ,Syafizah,Naja,Athirah,Ain,Amirah,Shazana,Fareza,Eliana,Khaleeda,Zahirah,Maisarah,Nurul and loads more. Especially my 4/9 2008 classmates

the best friends ive ever had in a class are Jentle,Thien Sen,Daryl,Bryan,You wang,pei cong,mario,isaac, bing han, wen wei and of course my classchairman Julian!

yea not to mention huda. thanks for making me realise whats love again. enjoy your moments with him and good luck with life!


yea. with that, im on hiatus. ill be busy preparing for my O levels.

ill blog about yesterday

yesterday was one of the kindest days ive ever experienced. during recess, i was just sitting down quietly. then suddenly the mak cik called me. i went over her stall and she gave me some rice to eat. wah. i rejected her offer at first but since she said shes ikhlas bout it. i accepted her offer. thanks makcik! i love you! haha. kind man

yea. then after school got napha test. everything was gold except pull up and standing broadjump.. -.-. haha. i suck at those 2.

so now i have 190 bucks. another 110 more to go to that epiphone les paul special II

huda

i cant move on

why was i inferior to f?

when it was me who stood by u all the time

ive given my heart to u since u dropped those year books

i believe it would had been easier for u if u had just picked me

i guess those 3 words dont work on you. how do i make u love me than him?

my aims in life

- get enough cash to support my family
- teach music to the world
- lead a happy life
- do charity work
- retire early(hahaha)

guess i should move on now. its just another one way traffic of love. eh nice line. maybe i will create a new song or what

i read adam khoo's book yesterday. and fuck i was inspired by his teaching methods. he also highlighted the point about mind over matter. its all in your mind. its how you want it or dont wait it.

yea
so i wanna post my targets for o levels
Eng - B3
Maths - A1
A Maths - A1
Comb Humans - B4
Physics - C5
Malay - B4
Chemistry - B3

so L1B4 is 3+1+1+3+4 = 12
L1R5 = 3+1+1+3+4+4 = 16

i can do it

haha. so many things has happened during the past 3 days. i dont feel the need to post about it though.

im beginning to feel the strain now. extra classes,tuition, loads of homework.. damn.
heh.

i guess luck isnt on my side when it comes to love

todays a sucky day. even though i got back my chemistry metal test and social studies essay. (got 21/30 and 8/12 respectively), i was dreaming the whole time.
after school, sec 4s had prelim oral. my mind was in a daze and i think i'll fail the oral. then after that i went around searching for huda. couldnt find her anywhere in school. then i called shaid to ask where is she. he told me she already went home.
although there is a feeling of dissappointment, the feeling of missing her is much greater. i wonder where had she gone to.
while walking home, a bird released its shit at my shoulder... -.-
then got home. i was frying some hotdogs and the hot oil spitted out and landed on my wrist.

heh. fucking bad day..

She calls herself Anak Ahmad
Right next to her white,snowy face
It all had happened in that room where
she accidentally drops the pile of year books,
I can't remember how it started
And if it lasted that day in school.

We said that we were going to study hard,
We held our books instead of hands,
Then one day she layed on my shoulder
I can't deny I was so confused

It's just another story caught up
In another memory in my head
And it seems like another person lived that life A great many years ago from now,

When I look back on my ordinary, ordinary life,
I see so much magic, though I missed it at the time.
When I look back on my ordinary ordinary, ordinary life,
I see so much magic, though I missed it at the time.

so many feelings at what time

stress
love
happy
confused
happy
love
angry
love
love
happy
confused
confused
confused


people used to say that you think using your brain. you breathe using your nose. you feel using your hands.

i think, i breathe , i feel using my heart

been waiting since 3 o clock for her to be online. now its 11pm. where are you huda?

just now i breathed in a poisonous gas and i was sent back home early. the gas was sulphur dioxide. i almost choked man..

so i miss her. i wonder where is she. didnt saw her today. haha. so much for fate..

heyheyhey. just came back from a fucking sports day. didnt do at all at pioneer jc. wasted. can spend 4 hours on maths instead. haha

day started off by having 3 periods but for me i had 4. cos of chemistry SPA. damn. yea. then i went to wait for huda at her void deck. we went to lot 1 by bus. so yea. complimented her. saying she smells nice etc

so lot 1 was boring la. but at the library was fun right huda? hahaha. we 'read' loads of books including a book about breast cancer. hehehe. abeh si dektu mcm phm go and read buku islam. haha. (ingin nak jadi alem tu psl). yea. she bongkar my beg and i bongkar dier punye. her ezlink pic was cute! haha. mine is botak...
then huda found one note about borrowing of books etc. and then the name of the borrower was Varma. so i made fun of every indians i see. hahaha

then it was 1 oclock and we went to the busstop. i actually wanted to ride 985 but she wanted to ride 190. so i agree to take 190. can take 190 at the busstop near lot 1 yet she wants to go to the interchange. haha. abeh she acts cute(real cute) and i layankan dier je la. yea. so there were loads of people in the bus. including Varma's son in law.hahaha

after arriving at the bus stop, Jentle called me. he was probably spying on me. heh. so me and huda continued our journey to pjc. while walking there was a group of girls
in front of us. one of the girl said 'eh ur something is wet'. then i saw the skirt at the other girl was wet and i shouted ' no her skirt is wet'. i cannot believe i shouted that seh! haha then huda and me laughed terbahak-bahak.

yea. we went in and i let her mingle with her friends while i mingle with mine. then blah2. cos sports day boring. haha. but i smiled while huda was playing 'the red'. haha shes so cute. and i hope that she spends more time in the outdoors.
yea. the whole world is for us to see!! so dont waste that opportunity!


QUOTE of the day

opportunities are nowhere



if u see the nowhere as no where, u give up to easily
if u see nowhere as now here, you make full use of ur opportunities.


haha till next time.
cheers