i think im lost in life
the hatred inside me
is piling up
like those garbage is piling up in the dustbin
lost the faith
lost the love
when the day is done
everytime i bloghopped or listen to any kind of stories/gossips/rumours
there will always be a word that will appear in all
one word
break up
cerai
and all those fuck shits
why cant everything be peaceful?
my family has been experiencing the same thing
earlier this year. my cousin whos a MALE went through a divorce.
because why?
his wife loved another man since LAST TIME?
SO WHY DID LAST TIME U CHOOSE TO MARRY MY COUSIN
U HAVE 2 KIDS SOME MORE
THE FIRST GREAT GRANDSON MY GRANDPARENTS HAD
AND U DARE TO SAY THIS NOW..

and and my auntie got a divorce too. cos her husband failed in his business
What the fuck? business is business. love is love. family is family
when ure at home put aside all those work related stuff

and guess what i just watch one movie where theres this 2 couple.
and its about having an affair and breaking up and divorce too.
OH its like my favourite word now


the moral of the story is

FOR THE FIRST SCENARIO
think about your kids first bitch. you're married. supposed to put others aside and always place ur kids first or u can say family first. happiness is another issue. grow up

FOR THE SECOND SCENARIO
ah dont wanna say. her husband wasnt a gentleman

FOR THE THIRD SCENARIO
if my future wife is having an affair, of course i am gonna get upset. i will be alone for dunno how many days or week but will finally realise when i see tears and unhappiness in my childrens eyes. for that i will give up my happiness for theirs. even though it will be awkward for me and my future wife that is




ONE WORD PEOPLE

SACRIFICE

its really a pain when doctors say you cant do any vigorous exercises anymore. soccer is my beloved sport but i have to leave it cos of health conditions. heh. life doesnt go my way

not feeling very good emotionally. gossips everywhere. fuck you.
i can be a funny guy at times ok. but i still have feelings!!! haiz
i guess let the feelings sway into playing the guitar.
i wish i can talk to girls about guitars.

sup whores. haha. long time never update. blogger is lagging so i dont give a damn about blogging but since shahren asked me to oh well. came back from GAY-lang. i swear the only thing on my mind was hotel 81. HAHA no la jk2. peace people. and selamat bulan ramadan from me to you. puasa aites

everything seems weird now. internet is slow. msn is laggy. facebook is slow plus laggy. i cant even comment. lol. and and nan sheng has a girlfriend. wah. one by one getting girlfriend eh. hahahaha

and life is boring since most of my modules is finish. and now left the exams. study study study.

my wants are growing day by day

Boss noise suppressor $110
Boss Digital Reverb $210
Boss Drive Zone $300
Eddie Van Halen phaser ??
Eddie Van Halen flanger ??
Takamine acoustic guitar $325
a tremelo guitar

i think ive got a massive problem here. ive got communication problem. im not like last time anymore where i used to add up unknown people or you can call them strangers i supposed. and then i could just talk my ass off. id like to think myself as the talk in real life kind where its the real thing you know. i supposed growing up as their cons too

now having grown up(hell yeah), i look for specific people to add up. but i cant just seem to chat 'fluently' as i did last time. its like the mojo is gone. and the jojo is still here. yeah that was lame. so now in facebook im actually scared to add people up even though ive posted some hellos on their walls. because i know i wont talk to them as much and its just good as saying 'do not add them'.